January 31st 2009-
Last night i went out on a date with the guy i met through K-leigh, i was so excited about it. He picked me up and i could just tell he was not my type. Now I'm very picky so i thought i could put everything i didn't like aside, but i just couldn't. I began to realise this just wont work, my night was terrible and long. We hung out with his friend and his girlfriend they were nice but i just couldn't deal with Everett. It seemed like he was trying to hard to impress me. Even though he was nice i just couldn't deal! I need a bit of a bad boy and this guy wouldn't even hurt a fly. I had to pretend i was sick most of the night i felt bad but I had no choice. During my date i got a text from Ross he is such a sweet guy i said i wouldn't go on a date with him before because again I'm extremely picky, but when i was out with Everett i realised i would much rather be with Ross so now we have a date on Friday! I'm learning that everything doesn't have to be perfect that maybe i should just let someone who cares about me into my life. I'm excited for this date I know it wont be perfect and that what i want.
I still have heard nothing from my sister, i tried talking to her but no reply. I think DJ is done talking about i guess he and Courtney met up to talk and she told him there was another guy she is interested in. Its terrible!
Saturday, January 31, 2009
Tuesday, January 27, 2009
The Heart Brake
January 27th 2009-
Today and yesterday have been so hard for me, I have just found out my sister and her boyfriend had broken up and i didn't even hear it from her. It makes me mad that she wouldn't come to me with something like that, she knows how close i am with DJ he is basically my brother and i think that scares her. I think she knows she did something wrong, she broke up with him and gave him no reason. I'm on both of there sides but mainly DJ's only because he has been treated so poorly by her but yet she is the love of his life, I know he sees the bad in her but he knows her to the point were he put that aside and just sees her beauty. I have been talking to DJ about it and she wont even talk to me. He said that he's not losing her but our whole family. I talked to my mom and she says we can still maintain a relationship with him, I don't fully believe that that could happen but i will try my best i cant lose my relationship with my sister because we are still friends. i just want to see both of them happy, i have seen to much hurt in my life that they were my inspiration. I just want to see true love work. And i want to be able to say my sister has found true love. I know he would give the world to her and it makes it hard for me to see her just throw someone away that has the heart to do that. I love and care about both of them so much that it makes me cry that these two people i love are in so much pain and even worse is that Courtney doesn't even have the confidence to show it.
I'm worried for my sister, she has just started college and she has changed so much. I live across the country and now since I'm gone when i go back i wont even know my sister. I love her and want her to make good decisions in life, I know I cant preach much about making good decisions but its hard to see some one mess up that you love. I wish she would let DJ back in her life he's my angel to protect her and now she has no one, not even her "friends".
Today and yesterday have been so hard for me, I have just found out my sister and her boyfriend had broken up and i didn't even hear it from her. It makes me mad that she wouldn't come to me with something like that, she knows how close i am with DJ he is basically my brother and i think that scares her. I think she knows she did something wrong, she broke up with him and gave him no reason. I'm on both of there sides but mainly DJ's only because he has been treated so poorly by her but yet she is the love of his life, I know he sees the bad in her but he knows her to the point were he put that aside and just sees her beauty. I have been talking to DJ about it and she wont even talk to me. He said that he's not losing her but our whole family. I talked to my mom and she says we can still maintain a relationship with him, I don't fully believe that that could happen but i will try my best i cant lose my relationship with my sister because we are still friends. i just want to see both of them happy, i have seen to much hurt in my life that they were my inspiration. I just want to see true love work. And i want to be able to say my sister has found true love. I know he would give the world to her and it makes it hard for me to see her just throw someone away that has the heart to do that. I love and care about both of them so much that it makes me cry that these two people i love are in so much pain and even worse is that Courtney doesn't even have the confidence to show it.
I'm worried for my sister, she has just started college and she has changed so much. I live across the country and now since I'm gone when i go back i wont even know my sister. I love her and want her to make good decisions in life, I know I cant preach much about making good decisions but its hard to see some one mess up that you love. I wish she would let DJ back in her life he's my angel to protect her and now she has no one, not even her "friends".
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